Slowly drowning.
Every breath slower than the last.
I wonder about time.
Pulling every gasp.
A dragging downfall.
A dip lower than the last.
Never finding purchase.
Until I pass.
An unassuming roughshod.
A subtle inquisition.
Through my eyes.
Stunning disposition.
Life is unconcerned.
Not with lowly volition.
I am not important.
Outside coalition.
So I go to face it.
My unending doom.
I'll sit smiling.
In a burning room.
-ToNyEmBlEy
I've been thinking about life lately. Nothing really stands out. Maybe I'm just boring -I am- or maybe life SEEMS boring.
Have you ever felt trapped in your own skin? Like you're bound to too many things. To your job, your schedule, your life. I wish I had a little more freedom. I wish I could pursue the goals I have freely. In the end I just want a free ride, I guess.
I hate that everything you want as always too many dollar signs away. I don't mean materialistic things like a car or TV or piece of unnecessary furniture. For instance, one of my long-term goals in life is to start a publishing company aimed at young writers so that I could give them an up-front and fair deal.
But that requires money I don't have (and will never have). Money for the education, the startup, then the upkeep and maintenance.
This journal is starting to ramble, but I just hate the fact the currency is the ruling factor of life. I wish things could be different.
The hearts of men are unwilling though. And I doubt we will ever find that kind of harmony in this world. Mankind is too greedy and ungrateful.